WoWW!  I have found it so hard to keep up to both my sites I don’t know what to do with myself!

http://www.AboveRubiesStudio.com

is doing so awesome and I LOVE working on it that I forget about this site! lol

It doesn’t mean lots and lots hasn’t happened or that I haven’t been recording memories.  Or that I haven’t been learning and growing in God’s grace alone….but alas this site has been a tad neglected! :(

Let’s see AboveRubies has been so much fun.  I’ve been going to scrapbooking stores and expo and classes every weekend it seems for the past few weeks.  Sean has been the world’s greatest husband/business partner/stay home daddy when mommy goes Man I could EVER ask for.  We’ve been having a blast planning out the new site design. (of course not without it’s share of disputes ;) ) October is going to be the awesome launch of the site including the Cricut Cutting Guide I have been working on for the past month and a half and still lots more to do.  I have over 350 cuts done so far and I hope to add at least 200 more, but we’ll see how far we get.  I know I will have to add updates as time goes by, but it’s a really helpful start and I know it will help any and every Cricut user out there.  If you don’t know what I am talking about and never heard of the Cricut, go over and check out AboveRubiesStudio.com and you can see what all the fuss is about with the crafting tutorial videos I try to put out every week at least.  So fun for me! God has really blessed me with this and just the pure enjoyment of it alone.  It gets me giddy to check my email and see a positive comment from someone who learned something from a video I did.

Being Mommy is the world’s BEST job EVER, but there is something about Scrapbooking and doing these things that really help to de-stress me and enjoy time for me outside of reading the Bible or study book.  Plus it’s really great to actually scrapbook all the fun things that are going on in the lives of our family and my children!  My GOODNESS does time go by fast!?!?  I forget to write half this stuff down and it’s driving me batty because I just want to keep up and ALWAYS hold onto and remember these times in life!!!!!

These kids of mine, oh they are so precious and the sweetest gift from God ever!  If I haven’t said it enough already, I will say it again.  Being a mommy has taught me more about God and His love and the relationship He wants with us more than anything else in the past 25 years of living.  Every time I see my kids I’m reminded of that in one way or another.

Funny story I will tell quickly, this summer Bensen LOVED to go out and play in the “pool” which was a $15.00 8′ long 2′ deep pool from Target.  But he loved it so much and we all enjoyed it too, but the one afternoon I decided to take him to the Splash park in Pottstown with some friends.  So we got out his bathing suite and in his cute little 19month old voice said “pool, pul??!??!!” I said yes, we’re going to go play in the water and splash with your friends.  So we got all ready to go sunscreen on Jena in her car seat and he goes running for our back door. (Pool was in the back of the house) and I said no no buddy, let’s go this way.  He hesitated at first but came running with a smile, then I opened the car door and oh boy…look out world.  I said come on let’s go to the pool and Bensen started crying and having a total meltdown.  He didn’t understand that I was taking him to a bigger and better pool than what we had in the backyard.  He didn’t understand that the car was to take us there, all he knew was his little pool in the backyard and that was what he wanted.  He cried for the whole 8 minute ride to the park and of course once he saw water and the “slides” it was all better.  But my goodness that made me think a lot about my life.  How GOOD God really is to me.  How often I am that toddler throwing my temper tantrum because I’m thinking God isn’t giving me what He said He was because I have it in my mind the “pool” I want.  But God says, “No, come my child!  I have something better for you”.  It really is amazing how God works and how MUCH He loves us and cares. And let me tell you, this is only ONE of the stories I could tell you about this…I just want to give a little something here!

Jenavieve my girl, one, she got her ears pierced on the 1st of September!  It is so stinkin’ cute I LOVE the little white gold studs my girly is now wearing with her pinkly painted toenails!  I LOVE having a daughter!  She cut her first tooth the day I was in Hershey with Becca.  So silly how she now scrunches her nose and giggles through it now! Love  it!!!

Jenavieve is now fully standing up and shuffling around and to things.  She is loving being mobile and is much more content with her life since she discovered the power of her scoot! ;) lol  She goes all over the place now, which is both good and bad!  The standing up in her crib is what gets me.  I absolutely love and adore every morning going into get the kids and they are both standing in their cribs facing each other and almost “playing” or “talking” to each other.  They really entertain themselves and each other quite well it’s AWESOME!!!

Bensen and his talking, I just love it!  He’s a blabber that’s for sure.  He looks and you and “talks” so intensely and he knows exactly what he is saying.  Some words are getting much clearer and we can usually figure it out, but it’s non stop with him.  Singing too, both the kids love to sing and listen to music.  Steve Green’s “Hide ‘Em In Your Hearts” silence my kids anytime anywhere!  I am not kidding, I can remember distinctly being stuck in traffic on our way to New Mexico last summer when Bensen was about 8 months old, turning on that cd and silence filled the car instantly.  That CD is like a magic off switch for the kids!  Now it works the same on Jenavieve!  You turn on the DVD or the CD anywhere and they are content as can be.  Bensen now does the motions to ALL the songs, and the one song on the DVD the girl is baking cookies and he calls it the “cookss” song.  Soo cute!  He “Keeps His Tongue” by holding onto it.  “Jesus Grew” as Bensen points his hands up to the ceiling and stretches arms out wide.  We know what love is and points to his head heart and Jesus.

I love being a mommy if I haven’t mentioned that recently!  There is so much more I could babel about with my kids really that’s what this blog is all about…me keeping track of them and helping to continue to preserve those memories that slip by so fast you don’t know what happened.

Always remember to praise God and to Enjoy the Moments!!!!

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Newest Achievements

Written by Megan in My Life

Well, since I haven’t written in who knows how long….I thought it was about time I write about some of the latest achievements around here!

As of today (7/25) Bensen figured out how to climb out of his crib using the basket on his dresser.  OYY!  So now to decide if I make him stay in the crib or switch to toddler bed, but still teach him to stay there untill Mommy says he can come out.  My only concern with switching to toddler bed is that he will fall out of it because of how much he flops and rolls in his sleep. I just don’t want an accident like I had when I fell out of my bed as a child.  Still, he has to learn to stay where he needs to stay until it’s time to get up, with or without rails!

And while we are on the subject of climbing, today Jenavieve also climbed up onto our little kids sofa!  She has standing there pulling herself up onto it.  First of all, she’s never made herself stand up by pulling herself up before, (she’s just barely crawling) but really, she got herself up on it!  My crazy climbing kids!

Another new milestone for Jenavieve is the fact that last week she decided, I’m going to eat cereal!  That’s right, after weeks and weeks of giving her a few bites and her freaking out about it like she was being fed poison, she is NOW eating it!  She opens her mouth as soon as the spoon is near and she chomps her cute little lips down on it and eats up an entire bowl of rice and pears!  It’s so cute!  She’s so good about it too!  And really started at the perfect time.  She took cereal in place of milk at the time of Erin’s wedding and didn’t make a peep about it!  That totally helped me out since I was so busy and Sean could just feed her.

While I’m talking about it, Erin’s wedding was awesome and I am so glad it’s over!  I did a lot of stuff for that wedding, which was awesome because it gave me so many ideas of things I can put into Above Rubies Studio!  Here’s a list

  • Favors
  • Place Setting Cards
  • Table Numbers
  • Just Married Signs/Saying Signs
  • Glass etched vases
  • Center pieces
  • Seating Charts
  • Slide Shows
  • Much much more! So cool! :)

Above Rubies is awesome, I am so happy to be working on it like I have been.  I recently entered a contest and as of today am in the lead by over double of the second place person.  The contest ends today, so we’ll see if anything changes in that time!  I’m so excited about it!!! :)

Well, I guess that’s all for now.

It’s so hard to keep up sometimes.  There is amazing things that God is blessing me with everyday!  These babies are so beautiful, healthy and growing up too fast.  (almost makes me want another one soon!…I did say ALMOST)

I love the sweetness of this Saturday Morning.  Jenavieve it watching a tv show so intently while holding her little doll, even a little giggle comes out once in a while.  Bensen wasn’t ready to get up yet, even though he climbed out of bed, he went back to it and I am on the sofa, drinking a lovely Dunkin Donuts coffee that my wonderful husband brought for me!

Ahh… My life is SO good and SOOO blessed!

Praise God for ALL you do for us!

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I’ve been so behind in wanting to keep up…I keep saying this, I want to do this so badly, yet I’m just having such issues doing it.

Bensen is becoming hysterical when it comes to singing. I love it so much! These moments are going by so fast, I don’t have a clue how to handle it!

We sing Deep and Wide, he does all the hand motions and sings “Deept” for the entire song. God is So Good he points up and sings Good, good good. :) This is the Day, of course he chooses just to sing the word Day. This Little Light of Mine is still my favorite song because he won’t let satan “woofft” it out and blows on his finger so cutely! I just love him to itsy bitsy pieces!
Of course with all this cuteness also comes a new level of will and “stinkerness”. He’s really learning his will and loves to test me. Daddy he’s much quicker to obey then myself and I can’t quite figure out why. He still is so good when it comes to sleep/nap time. All you have to do is ask him if he wants his binky or to go night nights and he either goes back and stands at his crib or rubs his eyes and holds his cute little hands up to you for you to pick him up. He is so precious. He now loves to be outside “shoushide” and loves to play with these glass beads from a stepping stone I had out there. They are like his little treasures. He loves to play with the garden hose or his little bucket of water. His 4 wheeler is a favorite and he is such a dare devil on that thing it practically gives me heart attacks. He has figured out how to stand on the handle bars and reach for things, or he stand on the seat and presses the red button and rides around while standing on the seat. He’s also mastered standing on the handle bars and reaching his hands up in the air and clapping. Scares me to death!

So anyway, I guess that sums him up right now and all his sweetnesses, (of course one little blog post is never enough!)

Miss Jenavieve however, she is almost 6 months old already!  Where has the time gone?????

She is developing her own little will too.  We now call her our Screetching Teradactal because whenever she is upset or wants something she goes into this high pitch screetching fit.  She just started to get a light flick on the cheek for it and she usually stops, looks at you like “why did you do that to me” and then lets out a real cry of discomfort for about 10 secs.  Then she is usually onto the next thing to look at or try to pick up.

She is so good at picking up her binky and putting it in her mouth.  Her fine motor skills really impress me.  Great with toys and little objects and she’s good because she doesn’t put a whole lot in her mouth.  She still loves to have her blanket right next to her face which now that it’s summer months is becoming a problem with sweat.  Most naps she wakes up sweaty, stinky and wet, but oh well!

These kids are such sweet hearts!  I wish I could write down all the little moments that melt my heart each and every day!  Like when Bensen holds Jena’s hand or walks in the room with a BIG smile and says “Hiiieea”  the way he says Jena or Jenaveive’s big open mouth smiles and belly gigles!

Just the other night it was late,  everyone was in bed, Sean and I were watching tv in our bed and the kids woke up.  They both came into our room and layed in bed and watched tv with us.  It was the most heart melting moment!  I just grabbed both of my babies and held them tight and kissed their head and praised God for giving them to me!  How good He is to us!!!  A few nights later I was out and came home after the babies were already in bed.  I couldn’t help but sneak into Bensens room and give him a kiss!  Sean soon followed behind me and it was the sweetest moment standing at Bensen’s crib with Sean’s arms around me and we prayed together in a light whisper for Bensen and Jenavieve.  How much I love them and want to raise them to fear, love and trust the Lord.  It’s so hard!!!  Oh how much I love these times though and how I want to remember them and make them last forever.

If I can enourage anyone to take time out of there day just to enjoy the moments, do it!  Enjoy The Moments has almost become my new closing to any blog post I write now.  Just a reminder that there are a million little moments in every day that too often we forget to stop and look at, let alone embrass and hold dear.  I have a hard enough time remembering things on my own, but if I can just stop for a few moments each day, reflect and PRAISE GOD for all He has given me and these Wonderful moments I have right in front of me. WOW!  What a wonderful day it can become!

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Seems to be my life right now…we are all so icky with allergies/colds. We’ve all been passing it around and around. So we’ve been drinking lots of tea, making foods with garlic or taking garlic tabs and drinking lots of water.
It’s absolutely no fun when Mom is sick with the kids, but I’ve enjoyed it very much at the same time. Bensen has spent a lot of time rocking in my lap and just hugging me. Jenavieve has been content, especially in her new found “friends” in her bouncy seat, and I’m just experiencing the full joy of caring for my kids. Reading the Bible with them and watching Hide Em’ In Your Heart more times in a day than most people watch it in a life time! Bensen is so cute because he’ll sit on my lap and point out things like “Cooks Keeys” and He’ll do sign language with “This is How We Know” and tries so hard to say Jesus, which usually comes out “Eeessasss” but we’re working on it ;) I guess I felt like writing this to say, I have all these goals and “things to do” around the house. But absolutely NOTHING has been more precious than this time dedicated completely to the kids. I’m still getting things done, and it’s still my job to get things done. I’ve just been reminded of what the priorities really are once again. “To teach the words that I have commanded you diligently to your children” not, have your house cleaned from top to bottom and well organized for this is what I’ve commanded you. :)
Of course I’ll working on organizing and cleaning it from top to bottom, and I have to tell you loving this book “The House That Cleans Itself” Check it out! :)

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The following article was sent to my inbox today, and it was too good for me to just pass it by and not share it. It truly does amaze me what media and pharmaceutical companies play out when it comes to vaccines and scares. I am sure that vaccines do have a place and that they can save lives. But this article is yet another reminder not to just jump on the scare-wagon and make haste choice based off of media pressure/fear. Any thoughts or comments on this I would love to hear!

Critical Alert: The Swine Flu Pandemic – Fact or Fiction?

By Dr. Mercola

American health officials declared a public health emergency as cases of swine flu were confirmed in the U.S. Health officials across the world fear this could be the leading edge of a global pandemic emerging from Mexico, where seven people are confirmed dead as a result of the new virus.

On Monday April 27th, the World Health Organization (WHO) raised its pandemic alert level to four on its six-level threat scale,1 which means they’ve determined that the virus is capable of human-to-human transmission. The initial outbreaks across North America reveal an infection already traveling at higher velocity than did the last official pandemic strain, the 1968 Hong Kong flu.

swine fluThe number of fatalities, and suspected and confirmed cases across the world change depending on the source, so your best bet — if you want the latest numbers — is to use Google Maps’ Swine Flu Tracker.

Several nations have imposed travel bans, or made plans to quarantine air travelers2 that present symptoms of the swine flu, such as:

* Fever of more than 100
* Coughing
* Runny nose and/or sore throat
* Joint aches
* Severe headache
* Vomiting and/or diarrhea
* Lethargy
* Lack of appetite

Top global flu experts are trying to predict how dangerous the new swine flu strain will be, as it became clear that they had little information about Mexico’s outbreak. It is as yet unclear how many cases occurred in the month or so before the outbreak was detected. It’s also unknown whether the virus was mutating to be more lethal, or less.

Much Fear Mongering Being Promoted

I suspect you have likely been alarmed by the media’s coverage of the swine flu scare. It has a noticeable subplot - preparing you for draconian measures to combat a future pandemic as well as forcing you to accept the idea of mandatory vaccinations.

On April 27, Time magazine published an article which discusses how dozens died and hundreds were injured from vaccines as a result of the 1976 swine flu fiasco, when the Ford administration attempted to use the infection of soldiers at Fort Dix as a pretext for a mass vaccination of the entire country.

Despite acknowledging that the 1976 farce was an example of “how not to handle a flu outbreak”, the article still introduces the notion that officials “may soon have to consider whether to institute draconian measures to combat the disease”.

WHO and CDC Pandemic Preparedness Seriously Broken

The pandemic warning system has failed as it simply doesn’t exist, even in North America and Europe. To improve the system, massive new investments in surveillance, scientific and regulatory infrastructure, basic public health, and global access to common sense interventions like vitamin D optimization are required.

According to the Washington Post, the CDC did not learn about the outbreak until six days after Mexico had begun to impose emergency measures. There should be no excuses. The paradox of this swine flu panic is that, while totally unexpected, it was accurately predicted. Six years ago, Science dedicated a major story to evidence that “after years of stability, the North American swine flu virus has jumped onto an evolutionary fasttrack”.

However, maybe this is precisely what public health authorities desire.

This is NOT the First Swine Flu Panic

My guess is that you can expect to see a lot of panic over this issue in the near future. But the key is to remain calm — this isn’t the first time the public has been warned about swine flu. The last time was in 1976, right before I entered medical school and I remember it very clearly. It resulted in the massive swine flu vaccine campaign.

Do you happen to recall the result of this massive campaign?

Within a few months, claims totaling $1.3 billion had been filed by victims who had suffered paralysis from the vaccine. The vaccine was also blamed for 25 deaths.

However, several hundred people developed crippling Guillain-Barré Syndrome after they were injected with the swine flu vaccine. Even healthy 20-year-olds ended up as paraplegics.

And the swine flu pandemic itself? It never materialized.

More People Died From the Swine Flu Vaccine than Swine Flu!

It is very difficult to forecast a pandemic, and a rash response can be extremely damaging.

As of Monday April 27, the worldwide total number of confirmed cases was 82, according to WHO, which included 40 cases in the U.S., confirmed by the Centers for Disease Control. But does that truly warrant the feverish news headlines?

To put things into perspective, malaria kills 3,000 people EVERY DAY, and it’s considered “a health problem”… But of course, there are no fancy vaccines for malaria that can rake in billions of dollars in a short amount of time.

One Australian news source,3 for example, states that even a mild swine flu epidemic could lead to the deaths of 1.4 million people and would reduce economic growth by nearly $5 trillion dollars.

Give me a break, if this doesn’t sound like the outlandish cries of the pandemic bird-flu I don’t know what does. Do you remember when President Bush said two million Americans would die as a result of the bird flu?

In 2005, in 2006, 2007, and again in 2008, those fears were exposed as little more than a cruel hoax, designed to instill fear, and line the pocketbooks of various individuals and industry. I became so convinced by the evidence AGAINST the possibility of a bird flu pandemic that I wrote a New York Times bestselling book, The Bird Flu Hoax, all about the massive fraud involved with the epidemic that never happened..

swine fluWhat is the Swine Flu?

Regular swine flu is a contagious respiratory disease, caused by a type-A influenza virus that affects pigs. The current strain, A(H1N1), is a new variation of an H1N1 virus — which causes seasonal flu outbreaks in humans — that also contains genetic material of bird and pig versions of the flu.

Interestingly enough, this version has never before been seen in neither human nor animal, which I will discuss a bit later.

This does sound bad. But not so fast. There are a few reasons to not rush to conclusions that this is the deadly pandemic we’ve been told would occur in the near future (as if anyone could predict it without having some sort of inside knowledge).
Why a True Bird- or Swine Flu Pandemic is HIGHLY Unlikely

While in my opinion it is highly likely factory farming is responsible for producing this viral strain, I believe there is still no cause for concern.

You may not know this, but all H1N1 flu’s are descendants of the 1918 pandemic strain. The reason why the flu shot may or may not work, however, from year to year, is due to mutations. Therefore, there’s no vaccine available for this current hybrid flu strain, and naturally, this is feeding the fear that millions of people will die before a vaccine can be made.

However, let me remind you of one very important fact here.

Just a couple of months ago, scientists concluded that the 1918 flu pandemic that killed between 50-100 million people worldwide in a matter of 18 months — which all these worst case scenarios are built upon — was NOT due to the flu itself!4

Instead, they discovered the real culprit was strep infections.

People with influenza often get what is known as a “superinfection” with a bacterial agent. In 1918 it appears to have been Streptococcus pneumoniae.

Since strep is much easier to treat than the flu using modern medicine, a new pandemic would likely be much less dire than it was in the early 20th century, the researchers concluded.

Others, such as evolutionary biologist Paul Ewald,5 claim that a pandemic of this sort simply cannot happen, because in order for it to occur, the world has to change. Not the virus itself, but the world.

In a previous interview for Esquire magazine, in which he discusses the possibility of a bird flu pandemic, he states:

“They think that if a virus mutates, it’s an evolutionary event. Well, the virus is mutating because that is what viruses and other pathogens do. But evolution is not just random mutation. It is random mutation coupled with natural selection; it is a battle for competitive advantage among different strains generated by random mutation.

For bird flu to evolve into a human pandemic, the strain that finds a home in humanity has to be a strain that is both highly virulent and highly transmissible. Deadliness has to translate somehow into popularity; H5N1 has to find a way to kill or immobilize its human hosts, and still find other hosts to infect. Usually that doesn’t happen.”

Ewald goes on to explain that evolution in general is all about trade-offs, and in the evolution of infections the trade-off is between virulence and transmissibility.

What this means is that in order for a “bird flu” or “swine flu” to turn into a human pandemic, it has to find an environment that favors both deadly virulence and ease of transmission.

People living in squalor on the Western Front at the end of World War I generated such an environment, from which the epidemic of 1918 could arise.

Likewise, crowded chicken farms, slaughterhouses, and jam-packed markets of eastern Asia provide another such environment, and that environment gave rise to the bird flu — a pathogen that both kills and spreads, in birds, but not in humans.

Says Ewald:

“We know that H5N1 is well adapted to birds. We also know that it has a hard time becoming a virus that can move from person to person. It has a hard time without our doing anything. But we can make it harder. We can make sure it has no human population in which to evolve transmissibility. There is no need to rely on the mass extermination of chickens. There is no need to stockpile vaccines for everyone.

By vaccinating just the people most at risk — the people who work with chickens and the caregivers — we can prevent it from becoming transmissible among humans. Then it doesn’t matter what it does in chickens.”

Please remember that, despite the fantastic headlines and projections of MILLIONS of deaths, the H5N1 bird flu virus killed a mere 257 people worldwide since late 2003. As unfortunate as those deaths are, 257 deaths worldwide from any disease, over the course of five years, simply does not constitute an emergency worthy of much attention, let alone fear!

Honestly, your risk of being killed by a lightning strike in the last five years was about 2,300 percent higher than your risk of contracting and dying from the bird flu.6 I’m not kidding! In just one year (2004), more than 1,170 people died from lighting strikes, worldwide.7

So please, as the numbers of confirmed swine flu cases are released, keep a level head and don’t let fear run away with your brains.

So is the Swine Flu Getting More or Less Dangerous?

On Sunday, April 26, The Independent reported that more than 1,000 people had contracted the swine flu virus in Mexico, 8 but by the afternoon that same day, Mexican President Calderon declared that more than two-thirds of the 1,300 thought to have contracted the disease had been given a clean bill of health and sent home.9

Additionally, the number of actual confirmed cases appears to be far lower than reported in many media outlets, leading me to believe that many reporters are interchanging the terms “suspected cases” and “confirmed cases.”

Interestingly Mexico is the ONLY country in the world where someone has actually died from this disease.Mexico has reported 152 fatalities in flu-like cases in recent days, seven of which have been confirmed as swine flu. Another 19 patients have been confirmed as having swine flu but surviving. About 2,000 people have been hospitalized with symptoms.
By contrast, the United States has had 64 confirmed cases, five hospitalizations and no deaths

According to the World Health Organization’s Epidemic and Pandemic Alert and Response site; as of April 27, there are:

* 64 laboratory confirmed cases in U.S. — 0 deaths (reported by CDC as of April 29)
* 26 confirmed cases in Mexico — 7 deaths
* 6 confirmed cases in Canada — 0 deaths
* 1 confirmed case in Spain — 0 deaths

Additionally, nearly all suspected new cases have been reported as mild.

Personally, I am highly skeptical. It simply doesn’t add up to a real pandemic.

But it does raise serious questions about where this brand new, never before seen virus came from, especially since it cannot be contracted from eating pork products, and has never before been seen in pigs, and contains traits from the bird flu — and which, so far, only seems to respond to Tamiflu. Are we just that lucky, or… what?

Your Fear Will Make Some People VERY Rich in Today’s Crumbling Economy

According to the Associated Press at least one financial analyst estimates up to $388 million worth of Tamiflu sales in the near future10 — and that’s without a pandemic outbreak.

More than half a dozen pharmaceutical companies, including Gilead Sciences Inc., Roche, GlaxoSmithKline and other companies with a stake in flu treatments and detection, have seen a rise in their shares in a matter of days, and will likely see revenue boosts if the swine flu outbreak continues to spread.

As soon as Homeland Security declared a health emergency, 25 percent — about 12 million doses — of Tamiflu and Relenza treatment courses were released from the nation’s stockpile. However, beware that the declaration also allows unapproved tests and drugs to be administered to children. Many health- and government officials are more than willing to take that chance with your life, and the life of your child. But are you?

Remember, Tamiflu went through some rough times not too long ago, as the dangers of this drug came to light when, in 2007, the FDA finally began investigating some 1,800 adverse event reports related to the drug. Common side effects of Tamiflu include:

* Nausea
* Vomiting
* Diarrhea
* Headache
* Dizziness
* Fatigue
* Cough

All in all, the very symptoms you’re trying to avoid.

More serious symptoms included convulsions, delirium or delusions, and 14 deaths in children and teens as a result of neuropsychiatric problems and brain infections (which led Japan to ban Tamiflu for children in 2007). And that’s for a drug that, when used as directed, only reduces the duration of influenza symptoms by 1 to 1 ½ days, according to the official data.

But making matters worse, some patients with influenza are at HIGHER risk for secondary bacterial infections when on Tamiflu. And secondary bacterial infections, as I mentioned earlier, was likely the REAL cause of the mass fatalities during the 1918 pandemic!

Where did This Mysterious New Animal-Human Flu Strain Come From?

Alongside the fear-mongering headlines, I’ve also seen increasing numbers of reports questioning the true nature of this virus. And rightfully so.

Could a mixed animal-human mutant like this occur naturally? And if not, who made it, and how was it released?

Not one to dabble too deep in conspiracy theories, I don’t have to strain very hard to find actual facts to support the notion that this may not be a natural mutation, and that those who stand to gain have the wherewithal to pull off such a stunt.

Just last month I reported on the story that the American pharmaceutical company Baxter was under investigation for distributing the deadly avian flu virus to 18 different countries as part of a seasonal flu vaccine shipment. Czech reporters were probing to see if it may have been part of a deliberate attempt to start a pandemic; as such a “mistake” would be virtually impossible under the security protocols of that virus.

The H5N1 virus on its own is not very airborne. However, when combined with seasonal flu viruses, which are more easily spread, the effect could be a potent, airborne, deadly, biological weapon. If this batch of live bird flu and seasonal flu viruses had reached the public, it could have resulted in dire consequences.

There is a name for this mixing of viruses; it’s called “reassortment,” and it is one of two ways pandemic viruses are created in the lab. Some scientists say the most recent global outbreak — the 1977 Russian flu — was started by a virus created and leaked from a laboratory.

Another example of the less sterling integrity of Big Pharma is the case of Bayer, who sold millions of dollars worth of an injectable blood-clotting medicine to Asian, Latin American, and some European countries in the mid-1980s, even though they knew it was tainted with the AIDS virus.

So while it is morally unthinkable that a drug company would knowingly contaminate flu vaccines with a deadly flu virus such as the bird- or swine flu, it is certainly not impossible. It has already happened more than once.

But there seems to be no repercussions or hard feelings when industry oversteps the boundaries of morality and integrity and enters the arena of obscenity. Because, lo and behold, which company has been chosen to head up efforts, along with WHO, to produce a vaccine against the Mexican swine flu?

Baxter!11 Despite the fact that ink has barely dried on the investigative reports from their should-be-criminal “mistake” against humanity.

According to other sources,12 a top scientist for the United Nations, who has examined the outbreak of the deadly Ebola virus in Africa, as well as HIV/AIDS victims, has concluded that the current swine flu virus possesses certain transmission “vectors” that suggest the new strain has been genetically-manufactured as a military biological warfare weapon.

The UN expert believes that Ebola, HIV/AIDS, and the current A-H1N1 swine flu virus are biological warfare agents.

In addition, Army criminal investigators are looking into the possibility that disease samples are missing from biolabs at Fort Detrick — the same Army research lab from which the 2001 anthrax strain was released, according to a recent article in the Fredrick News Post.13 In February, the top biodefense lab halted all its research into Ebola, anthrax, plague, and other diseases known as “select agents,” after they discovered virus samples that weren’t listed in its inventory and might have been switched with something else.

Factory Farming Maybe Source of Swine Flu

Another theory as to the cause of Swine Flu might be factory farming. In the United States, pigs travel coast to coast. They can be bred in North Carolina, fattened in the corn belt of Iowa, and slaughtered in California.

While this may reduce short-term costs for the pork industry, the highly contagious nature of diseases like influenza (perhaps made further infectious by the stresses of transport) needs to be considered when calculating the true cost of long-distance live animal transport.

The majority of U.S. pig farms now confine more than 5,000 animals each. With a group of 5,000 animals, if a novel virus shows up it will have more opportunity to replicate and potentially spread than in a group of 100 pigs on a small farm.

With massive concentrations of farm animals within which to mutate, these new swine flu viruses in North America seem to be on an evolutionary fast track, jumping and reassorting between species at an unprecedented rate.

Should You Accept a Flu Vaccine — Just to be Safe?

As stated in the New York Times14 and elsewhere, flu experts have no idea whether the current seasonal flu vaccine would offer any protection whatsoever against this exotic mutant, and it will take months to create a new one.

But let me tell you, getting vaccinated now would not only offer no protection and potentially cause great harm, it would most likely be loaded with toxic mercury which is used as a preservative in most flu vaccines..

I’ve written extensively about the numerous dangers (and ineffectiveness) of flu vaccines, and why I do not recommend them to anyone. So no matter what you hear — even if it comes from your doctor — don’t get a regular flu shot. They rarely work against seasonal flu…and certainly can’t offer protection against a never-before- seen strain.

Currently, the antiviral drugs Tamiflu and Relenza are the only drugs that appear effective against the (human flu) H1N1 virus, and I strongly believe taking Tamiflu to protect yourself against this new virus could be a serious mistake — for all the reasons I already mentioned above.

But in addition to the dangerous side effects of Tamiflu, there is also growing evidence of resistance against the drug. In February, the pre-publication and preliminary findings journal called Nature Precedings published a paper on this concern, stating15:

The dramatic rise of oseltamivir [Tamiflu] resistance in the H1N1 serotype in the 2007/2008 season and the fixing of H274Y in the 2008/2009 season has raised concerns regarding individuals at risk for seasonal influenza, as well as development of similar resistance in the H5N1 serotype [bird flu].

Previously, oseltamivir resistance produced changes in H1N1 and H3N2 at multiple positions in treated patients. In contrast, the recently reported resistance involved patients who had not recently taken oseltamivir.

It’s one more reason not to bother with this potentially dangerous drug.

And, once a specific swine flu drug is created, you can be sure that it has not had the time to be tested in clinical trials to determine safety and effectiveness, which puts us right back where I started this article — with a potential repeat of the last dangerous swine flu vaccine, which destroyed the lives of hundreds of people.

Topping the whole mess off, of course, is the fact that if the new vaccine turns out to be a killer, the pharmaceutical companies responsible are immune from lawsuits — something I’ve also warned about before on numerous occasions.

Unfortunately, those prospects won’t stop the governments of the world from mandating the vaccine — a scenario I hope we can all avoid.

How to Protect Yourself Without Dangerous Drugs and Vaccinations

For now, my point is that there are always going to be threats of flu pandemics, real or created, and there will always be potentially toxic vaccines that are peddled as the solution. But you can break free of that whole drug-solution trap by following some natural health principles.

I have not caught a flu in over two decades, and you can avoid it too, without getting vaccinated, by following these simple guidelines, which will keep your immune system in optimal working order so that you’re far less likely to acquire the infection to begin with.

* Optimize your vitamin D levels. As I’ve previously reported, optimizing your vitamin D levels is one of the absolute best strategies for avoiding infections of ALL kinds, and vitamin D deficiency is likely the TRUE culprit behind the seasonality of the flu — not the flu virus itself.

This is probably the single most important and least expensive action you can take. I would STRONGLY urge you to have your vitamin D level monitored to confirm your levels are therapeutic at 50-70 ng.ml and done by a reliable vitamin D lab like Lab Corp.

For those of you in the US we hope to launch a vitamin D testing service through Lab Corp that allows you to have your vitamin D levels checked at your local blood drawing facility, and relatively inexpensively. We hope to offer this service by June 2009.

If you are coming down with flu like symptoms and have not been on vitamin D you can take doses of 50,000 units a day for three days to treat the acute infection. Some researchers like Dr. Cannell, believe the dose could even be as high as 1000 units per pound of body weight for three days.

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Avoid Sugar and Processed Foods. Sugar decreases the function of your immune system almost immediately, and as you likely know, a strong immune system is key to fighting off viruses and other illness. Be aware that sugar is present in foods you may not suspect, like ketchup and fruit juice.
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Get Enough Rest. Just like it becomes harder for you to get your daily tasks done if you’re tired, if your body is overly fatigued it will be harder for it to fight the flu. Be sure to check out my article Guide to a Good Night’s Sleep for some great tips to help you get quality rest.
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Have Effective Tools to Address Stress . We all face some stress every day, but if stress becomes overwhelming then your body will be less able to fight off the flu and other illness.

If you feel that stress is taking a toll on your health, consider using an energy psychology tool such as the Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT), which is remarkably effective in relieving stress associated with all kinds of events, from work to family to trauma. You can check out my free, 25-page EFT manual for some guidelines on how to perform EFT.
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Exercise. When you exercise, you increase your circulation and your blood flow throughout your body. The components of your immune system are also better circulated, which means your immune system has a better chance of finding an illness before it spreads. You can review my exercise guidelines for some great tips on how to get started.
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Take a good source of animal based omega-3 fats like Krill Oil. Increase your intake of healthy and essential fats like the omega-3 found in krill oil, which is crucial for maintaining health. It is also vitally important to avoid damaged omega-6 oils that are trans fats and in processed foods as it will seriously damage your immune response.
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Wash Your Hands. Washing your hands will decrease your likelihood of spreading a virus to your nose, mouth or other people. Be sure you don’t use antibacterial soap for this — antibacterial soaps are completely unnecessary, and they cause far more harm than good. Instead, identify a simple chemical-free soap that you can switch your family to.
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Eat Garlic Regularly. Garlic works like a broad-spectrum antibiotic against bacteria, virus, and protozoa in the body. And unlike with antibiotics, no resistance can be built up so it is an absolutely safe product to use. However, if you are allergic or don’t enjoy garlic it would be best to avoid as it will likely cause more harm than good.
* Avoid Hospitals and Vaccines In this particular case, I’d also recommend you stay away from hospitals unless you’re having an emergency, as hospitals are prime breeding grounds for infections of all kinds, and could be one of the likeliest places you could be exposed to this new bug. Vaccines will not be available for six months at the minimum but when available they will be ineffective and can lead to crippling paralysis like Guillain-Barré Syndrome just as it did in the 70s.

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Venting Part 2

Written by Megan in Bible Lessons, My Life

Ok, So I spent 45 minutes yesterday on my “venting” and what do I read in my devotions today?

Proverbs 29:11 -
“A FOOL VENTS all his feelings, but a WISE man (woman) holds them back”

Nice Megan! What a fool and oh how God works! Who says He doesn’t have a sense of humor and doesn’t speak to you daily? I guess the trick is actually looking to Him huh!?

Anyway, I’m not going to delete my “venting” entry only simply because it proves the point. I’m willing to learn, even though I am still so weak. Praise God for His Word, Instructions and Care!
His Grace and Love ARE Abundant!
Working on how to be wise, and holding my peace! Especially with these self absorbed “feelings”!

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Trouble from Benben…

Written by Megan in My Life

This child totally cracks me up! He’s literally driving me crazy, but I love him!

He’s been getting into more and more trouble the older he gets lol, which I know goes with the territory. I was looking back over some of the old trouble he used to get into like taking off with my cell phone…throwing things in the bathroom to “go get them” because he knows he isn’t allowed in the bathroom. To getting diapers from the basket and throwing them all over the living room and decorating with diaper wipes. He was especially bad with this stuff when I first started with nursing Jenavieve. He’s been so much better at that, but now he’s really testing his will. He’s so cute and funny though. Today he actually took his diaper off right after I put it on him and was getting his clothes to get dressed and he peed on my floor. Couldn’t believe he did that, but yes he did. I feel like everything I’ve said to do or not do today he’s done or not done just to test me to see “what are You gonna do about it Mom?!”. He’s gotten a quick lesson of what I am going to do about it today. But it’s so hard to pick your battles and not loose it! Another reason that God’s love just amazes me! I read a little quote today that said

“The human heart is selfish, prefers its own way, fights being molded by God, and doesn’t want to give in when we don’t get what is “rightfully ours”. We’re stubborn, prideful, and strong-willed and these unbecoming characteristic are mostly starkly revealed in our relationships. Isn’t it a comfort to know that God’s love is never miserly, never punishing of our secret, doubt-plagued thoughts? He will never pelt us in anger. He will never leave us, even when we whine and throw our tantrums in our frustrations over what we don’t like or don’t understand. After all, He knows that we are just candy-tossing toddlers at heart.” (From the book Managing Your Moods)

All I could think when I was reading this during Bensen’s MUCH needed nap today how true of my own heart that is. And just simply how blessed I am by God’s love and grace! I need it so badly with my children! I pray that I can teach Ben and Jena that even though I “loose it” on them and mess up all the time…that simply I am just like them and that God is the perfect parent. He loves us so deeply I can’t even begin to comprehend it!

I wonder how God laughs at me and shakes his head when I throw my fits? I wonder if He finds it cute when I make my pooch lip faces like Bensen and thinks, you silly child Megan, i know what’s best. You’re fine, just keep going the way i want you to! I wonder if He ever laughs at the “new stunts” I learn to pull?

Anyway, I guess thats really all I have to say about it! I’m just a dirty rotten cute little sinner, just like my kids! It’s great how God gives us these different relationships ot understand Him better isnt it!?

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Jena’s Birth Story

Written by Megan in My Life

I realized I still haven’t written about how Jenavieve came into this world on Saturday, December 20, 2008 7:14pm weighing 7lbs 2.9oz and 19.5 inches long.  :)

Well labor was a very Looonnnggg process with Jena just as it was with her big brother, Bensen.  I had actually started having contractions and even slightly dilating in October which lead to moderate bedrest, (this is all written in the post I wrote called “Jena’s Story”) and then still brought her to us 10 days late!

We’ll start from Wednesday December 17th, I had a Dr’s appointement with Robbin and we discovered that even though I was continuing to dilate, my baby girl was presenting posterior, just as Ben had.  Right away, I said, let’s do a c-section, I am NOT going through this again!  Sean, Robbin and I spent some time talking that afternoon and discussing the risks and possibilities.  Because Dr. Cameranno had Jena’s due date as Dec 28th, she said the earliest he would schedule the surgery would be on Monday.  I was totally devistated by that news and thought, I can’t do this anymore! I just CAN’T! (See from Monday up to Wednesday I had been contracting every 4 min. VERY hard and no breaks, sleep was impossible and I was breaking down!)  Robbin gave me the option of going over to the hospital for Demerol and Benadryl, but she really didn’t want me to take that option just yet.  I agreed and she told me a few more things to “try at home” along with her stripping my membranes for the 2nd time.  Wendesday night was very difficult for me and I spent a lot of time in the tub that night and cried quite  bit.  I kept praying that God would make her come already and why was He making me go through this with these babies!?!  My mom came over on Thursday and I called Robbin and Jennifer again and said I want to go to the hospital tonigt for pain management or something.  So my Mom and I went up to Reading in the afternoon and Sean met us at the Dr’s office where it was me, my mom, Sean, Robbin, Jennifer and Dr. Cameranno via phone.  (Quite the meeting and Appointment I must say!)  Jennifer really didn’t want me to go to the hospital for the meds because of where she saw me at.  Robbin was VERY confident and pleased when she examined me because baby girl had decided to turn herself around and was now presenting antierior!  They were very pleased, and while I did feel better in my back pain, I was still contracting constantly and very ready to be done!  So for the 3rd time I was stripped, poked, and given another dose of homeopathic medicines.  I finally asked for Tylonal 3 to try to sleep at home without being over the top on pain meds.  I didn’t think it would really help because I take medicines like a horse, but I was ready for SOMETHING!  We went home Thursday night and I took my dose of Tylonal 3 and benadryl, got in my muscle relax bath and prayed again!  I actually got sleep on Thursday night!! That alone was an answer to prayer!  I was feeling “much better” on Friday, at least emotionally, and my contractions actually spread out and where not so bad in my back! Big PRAISE, even though I wanted this baby to come already!  Knowing that come the following week this baby would be out one way or another, even by c-section, I was feeling better.  Friday night our wonderful neighbor’s and very good friends Steve and Becca had us over for dinner and some games.  Becca and I enjoyed a few rounds of Scrabble and my contractions started getting really really strong again.  I took another dose of my T3 and my nightly bath and went to “bed”…it was wrestless sleep but I did get some rest.  4:00am rolled around and I was READY!  I went out to the kitchen and thought, ok, this is getting to be “it” but I dont want to rush in.  I was concerned because we had an ice storm the night before and I didn’t really know how long it would take us to get to the hospital and I had other concerns about Ben, too, but I thought ok take another t3 get in the tub and wait it out!  Come 6am I couldn’t wait anymore.  I woke up Sean and said we should think about getting Bensen ready or at least us get ready and call Mom and Dad to stay here or whatever until Ben woke up.  I called my Dad slightly after 6 and asked if it would be better to wake Ben and bring him to them or for them to come to him.  Thankfully I called them when I did because they were getting ready to go out for their day.  7am we dropped Ben off and had a plan to go up to Reading, eat at IHOP (so I could be ready for this with some food) and then walk at the mall until I was REALLY ready for the baby to come out!  Well, we got up to Reading and contractions where steadily getting closer and harder, so we bagged IHOP and went to McDonalds and then decided to try Target to get at least some walking to make sure I would be far enough along that i would NOT go home this time.  Well I was so nausious that I couldn’t eat more than 2 bites of my McGriddle and just drank my ice water and chewed on ice chips.  Sean and I went into Target just as it opened and I went into the bathroom about 6 times with a lot of mucus discharge and contractions getting even closer.  We walked around for about 15 minutes and I felt like I couldn’t take it anymore and I was getting more and more nausious!  We decided to drive to the hospital because too many people were asking poor Sean what was wrong with me and if I was ok!  We got to the hospital and I find out I’m still only 3cm and my contractions where not showing up on the monitors! (FRUSTRATING FOR SURE!!!!)  But i was getting so sick I threw up everywhere and was getting a bad headache on top of it.  The midwife at triage decided to admit me for pain medicines at least and see what happens.  I got one dose of Nubain and then my vommiting stopped and labor started progressing.  Contractions every 2-3 minutes and dilation started! YAY!  My midwife, Jennifer came to the hospital around 11am after my assigned nurse talked to her on the phone and said that I was absolutely contracting regardless of the monitors and that I was progressing. Sean was getting hungry so I had him call my mom to come up and bring him some food, she was there around 3pm, and Sean was so busy with me, he never did eat the food my mom brought! By 4pm I was at 8.5 cm and Jennifer said that I could start to push with her help and see what this baby is doing.  Baby girl turned herself again and was facing posterior but hopeful of her turning herself around again.  I was in and out of the hospitals shower with as hot of water as I could stand and my wonderful Sean did everything he could to help and make me comfortable.  I was begging for an epidural, but Sean kept telling me i could do it, I could DO IT, I was almost there!  After more pushing and changing positions and everything we could do, I finally asked Jennifer what she thought for the epidural and she recommended it so that i had the strength to push her out.  So we called for that and I didn’t end up getting it until I was 10cm and she was starting to come out. I remember feeling the most intense pain of my life and it was by far the hardest thing I ever had to do!  I pushed for 1hr and 45 minutes for her to come out with that epidural and I swore that barely took the edge off the pain if it even did that.  I am still getting made fun of because at one point during pushing I was screaming Golly Gee GET HER OUT! lol!  I really felt like I was giving it everything I had and she wasn’t going to come.  And I could tell by my mom that something wasn’t quite right.  Jennifer had made mention to the ambilical cord being pinched or around her neck.  Baby girl started showing some distress in contractions and drops in heart rate.  They started me with oxygen between contractions and Sean kept spooning me mouthfuls of ice.  Contractions where coming so close I barely had time to swallow a piece, I remember I wanted ice so bad and I needed to breath, Sean just put a piece of ice in my mouth and it was time to push again, I just spat the ice out all over the side of the bed and started pushing again.  It felt like forever and she wasn’t coming.  I kept being told I need to breath for her with the oxygen mask.  Finally, at 7:14pm she made her entrance into the world!  It was an absolutely AMAZING moment!  Not only for me, but Sean too…it was so emotional for us both and very exciting!  She was layed right on top of me and she was crying and doing quite well!  The ambilical cord was around her neck one time, but thankfully Jennifer was able to quickly untangle it and she was fine!  I had no idea that the afterbirth would be so difficult to deliver and painful, but it was really cool to see where the baby spent the past nine months of her little life and we got a very cool picture of it too! Sean was able to cut the cord and we spent an amazing first few hours together, along with my mom!  I nursed my baby girl within the first 20 minutes of her life and we bonded so immediately!  Everything felt so crazy and phone calls started to be made.  What was her name?  We didn’t know!  Sean and i had several names picked out and agreed that we would wait till seeing her to decide between Jenavieve, Elaina and JoyAnna.

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I just finished (in less than 24 hrs I might add) Jon and Kate Gosselin’s book Multiple Blessings.  It has inspired me to write this post for now.

The book from Kate’s view of their journey of the past several years was so encouraging to me.  I was very spiritually encouraged by God’s amazing goodness in our lives.  This post really isn’t intended to be about that book.  But Kate’s openess in sharing her heart over her struggles and ups and downs was exactly what I needed right now.  I’ve been struggling a bit with some overwhelming emotions.  Call it post-partum, whatever you will, but emotional non-the less…lack of sleep if you will from a less than always content 3 weeks old.  Don’t get me wrong, I’m blessed by her every moment, but it wears on you night after night of her only wanting to be held to sleep.  It made me feel good to see kate “complain” to God yet praise Him at the same time.  It’s where I feel my life is at right now.

I’m tired, receovering, and overwhelmed.  I cry sometimes, usually in my nightly “relaxing time” of a hot bath that my wonderful husband so wonderfully allows me by keeping baby Jena happy.  I think how awful a mom I must be, plenty of other women do it! What is my problem?  I am not the first person to have two kids close together, (although I don’t know why people plan to have kids close together! lol! :) )  yet I feel whiny and miserable at times.  I love little Jena and her precious little faces and ever her pathetic whiny cry.  My heart aches for her that she has such a hard time getting her gas to pass and pooh to move that she just doesn’t know what to do with herself, but it hasn’t made me feel any less *BLAH*!

There have been so many times in the past 3 weeks that I feel like I’ve been a horrible mother to Bensen who is still very much learning and discovering and doing new things each day.  He doesn’t mind and he is so incredibly precious and sweet with little Jena.  He gives her kisses all the time and he loves to give her, her binky and even get diapers for me to change her. It’s an adjustment that we are getting through oneday at a time.  I think we are doing pretty well, dispite my mood-swings!

I know it’s just me, and I’m just whiny and whatever right now, but I thought i would post this anyway.  It’s really how I feel and i just wanted to put it out there.   I have  great support of friends around me, even though at times, I want to just hide in a hole and not talk to anyone because i feel like such a mess.  I am just thrilled to be so blessed with this family God gave me.  Sean is the most wonderful husband anyone could ever ask for, and Bensen is such a good little boy!!! Jena is still getting adjusted to life, but she is so beautiful and I love her to tiny pieces!!! :)

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This Baby’s Story…

Well…Here we are at the 19th of December and along with a lot of other people asking, WHY HAVEN’T YOU HAD THIS BABY YET?! Trust me when I say, I’m feeling that way!

I want to say, God has been so good to me through this, and is teaching me a lot and I’m spending much time in prayer with Him, especially for others, and this past week has been the most trying for me in this pregnancy.

I thought I would take a little time to reflect back over this pregnancy and for any of you that are curious to the “story” of what has brought us to this point and the options of what lay ahead of us…

Here is My Story… (*Disclaimer* This note may include details of body parts or what may seem like TMI, but it’s the story… :) )

This all started in March of 2008, I started feeling very different to say the least, and with Bensen being only 3.5 months old, I thought that it was my body getting back to “normal” from having a baby. I had a period in Dec and Jan, but nothing in Feb which I didn’t think anything of, and when March came and still no period and all these other symptoms, I became very curious. I saw my chiropractor the second to last week of March and she had told me that she thought I was at least two weeks pregnant based off of reflexology, EDD of November 27th, 2008 (not a medical absolute)…I was shocked and didn’t know what to think. I decided to wait it out a little bit and take a pregnancy test at home. I had shown Sean as a “birthday” present that we were having another baby and had the conversation with him about not needing to use “protection” anymore because it didn’t matter! (Again I gave a disclaimer, hope it’s not too much info!)

That was the first week of April…at that point Sean and I decided not to go right to the midwives office and just to see how things go for a little while, make sure I don’t miscarry right away etc… (we had several miscarriages in the past). I finally made an appt to see my midwife the first week of June when things seemed to be going well and I felt huge already. We went through the first run through of tests and based off of when I had my last period and the size my uterus was measuring along with blood tests, she gave me an estimated due date of November 17th, 2008.

June 5th I had my first ultrasound where the thought of twins had entered the picture. My uterus was measuring at 19 weeks and the baby there was much smaller. The ultrasound gave me a due date of December 28th, 2008. I was like that isn’t possible at all!!! But I ignored it and went back to my midwife to discuss the ultrasound results with her. I told her I thought they were crazy and if that was my due date, Sean wasn’t even around, I already knew I was pregnant…etc…We did another check a few weeks later for twins and any other problems where at that ultrasound the baby measured even smaller to say I wasn’t due until January. That ultrasound measurements were disregarded all together, but non-the-less, that’s what the ultrasound said.

I feel a little silly because I thought FOR SURE she would be here by the first week of December, and that everything else was just hogwash!!!…Here we are at the 19th, and still no baby…*sigh*

Then October rolled around and I started having some strange pains that turned into 10 min apart contractions, along with some bleeding. So of course, we went to Reading Hospital OB Triage to be checked out, and they found that I had a hemorrhaging adhesion. There was no rel problem with it, but they put me on modified bed rest for only a few weeks and at that point too thought maybe my due date by ultrasound was “off”.

November came and I was certain we would have this baby before Thanksgiving because of how braxton hicks were going and the fact that I was already slightly dilated and feeling very ready to go. I am sure I drove some people crazy with my facebook status and other things because I kept thinking, she’s coming, she has to be coming!

Well, December is here! Starting December 10th, 2008, I started getting really strong and bad back pains along with contractions every 6 minutes. I had actually thought that these back pains were the start of a kidney infection because of where it hurts, how sharp it got and how constant they stayed. I had been praying for many many nights before then that this baby would be coming “today”, but once we hit the 10th, I was certain this pain could not go on forever she has to be coming. We went back into the hospital again on the 12th, and found out I had only dilated a little bit more, though I was thinning out and effacing, I really wasn’t in “active” labor, but they call it Prodromal labor. That night I was sent home with pain medicine and the dr at the hospital told me that by Monday she thought we would have a baby. Well nothing more happened except for me loosing more and more sleep due to pain keeping me awake and my nerves and emotions just melting down. Wednesday we went into the birth center and she felt the baby and said she would strip my membranes and stretch my cervix, but thought the baby was posterior (just like Bensen) and that’s why she wasn’t engaging and why I was in such a drawn out labor with such bad backpain. We dicussed C-section to be scheduled for Monday the 22nd, which is not what I had wanted all along, but if it was going to be just like Ben, I wasn’t going to put myself through it any longer. I still feel like Monday is forever away! So we can home on Wednesday went out for dinner to “relax” and I kept thinking hoping and praying that this baby would come down and be born without a c-section. I went back in on Thursday (yesterday) and had a conference with Dr Cameranno (the overseeing OBGYN for the midwives, and the Dr to do the csection) and both of my midwives, Sean and my mom where all there. After the exam more stretching and more stripping, they found that the baby had switch positions and is now at 0 station and I’m more effaced along with a slight more dilated, but still pretty stuck with dilation.

The midwives feel there hands are a little tied as to further induction of me because when I had Bensen and they gave me pitocin at the very end I had seizure like reactions and did not respond well. (I don’t respond well to synthetic hormones anyway, so it’s not a good thing) Also, breaking my water is an option, but one they still wanted to avoid because of if not delivered in a certain time frame, they would be forced to do a section anyway. We/I am very much trying to do this naturally because I will not be able to have a VBAC after this baby and my uterus is already weak enough that we may not be able to have very many children. (not that we want a ton, but we don’t want to be completely limited if we can help it)

God has been good in giving strength. Last night I was able to get 6 straight hours of sleep because of the medicines the midwives sent me home with yesterday. They are confident that I will be able to have this baby naturally with a little more time to allow this baby to come out. My fluids are good which was a concern, and she is handling contractions and stress very well with good accelerations.

So here we are, now just waiting, and as the 28th approaches, I’m wondering how this happened. Dr Cammerano has a theory, but I find it so hard to believe, but non-the-less, God has the due date of this miracle baby already planned.

I really am so thankful for all the friends and family that have supported, been here helping and those who have just been praying! It’s been a long few weeks of just being uncomfortable to now being in just down right pain with a lot of anxiety to know when she is going to be able to come, if she will be able to on her own!

So, thank you, to those who are really praying!

 Joyce Confino at 1:51pm December 19

Megan,

Thanks so much for the explanation! I must admit I was so confused! I will be praying. Though it seems like forever now, soon you will hold your sweet baby in your arms and this time will be just a distant memory.

 Lydia Jordan at 2:22pm December 19

What is Dr C’s theory?

 Megan Gravener at 2:28pm December 19

Dr Cameranno’s Theory is quite comical actually! Guess I could have explained that in all of this!

Since I waited two more weeks to take the “home test”, his theory is, I actually conceived on Sean’s birthday when I told him I was pregnant and that the home pregnancy test was more like a home ovulation test that came up positive. Since that was my first positive home test outside of my chiropractor, you can get a false positive IF it is the day of ovulation only. I find it hard to swallow, however at that point was the first unprotected time we had together. I still had symptoms and other things that dated back two weeks or more before that test, but they still chalk that up to just having a baby! So it’s a very ironic theory that this baby was actually Sean’s bday present and it just so happened that I took the home test that particular day. If that’s what happened, then so be it. The midwives don’t particularly believe it, and that’s why we came to the due date of December 12th based off of the home test and chiropractor. It doesn’t follow anything else but the appropriate response of a home test.
*I swear I’m not crazy…but my body sure is!* LOL

 Kristen Davis Waters at 2:34pm December 19

Awww…poor thing! I was wondering about all the Facebook statuses! ;) It sounds like it can’t be too much longer now…I’ll add you to my things to pray for! :)

 Eric Rachael Gregory at 3:45pm December 19

We’re all still praying for you, Megan, here in MI. Jill Herron just about jumped up and down when I told her that the baby had turned. She said she had been praying constantly that she would turn and you could have her naturally. We’re all waiting with baited breath. At this rate, you might have to post the whole delivery right on Facebook live so we can all follow it!!:-)

 Becky Price Guy at 8:48am December 20

Some bodies are definately just a little crazy (mine, too!) Jessica’s due date was based on THREE ultrasounds, all saying she was due around April 29th (we could never tell based on my wacky periods). Well, Jessica was born on March 31 at 6 pounds and 9 ounces! You can’t tell me that was a nearly five weeks premature baby. I’m fourteen weeks pregant with my second. I was just reminiscing with Mike last night about how I cried to my girlfriends in September that I had gotten my period and obviously wasn’t pregnant (despite lots of other symptoms). At that point, I was already a few weeks along! :-) Some times it just doesn’t make sense. But I’m glad God blesses us with children anyway. They are all miracles when you think about everything that has to be in the right place at the right time to conceive. I think sometimes God just works it out according to his plan, no matter what the textbook says. Hang in there, your precious one has to come out sometime! :-)

 Kelly Hollister at 3:39pm December 20

You’ll have to save this story for your little girl. She’ll enjoy reading about it someday, so if you have not printed it off….you should. :)

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