For a little while now, I’ve been feeling very excited and hopeful about writing everyday about my devotions.  To be honest this has been an intention for awhile and then every time I go to just do it, I feel like I can’t.  I get scared at times, instead of just putting myself out there and writing to help others, I think “I really don’t know anything”, when really I do, or “I’m going to offend somebody”, when maybe I should.  I get caught up in knowing I’m not a great writer and I don’t have all the answers.  But I know right now that I am growing.  I know right now that I have something to offer, and I know right now that my heart is fixed on serving God, and if I can do that even a little through writing, I’m going to do that.

This passage of scripture is what made it really click for me:

Jeremiah 1:1-10

1   The words of Jeremiah the son of Hilkiah, of the priests that were in Anathoth in the land of Benjamin:
2   To whom the word of the LORD came in the days of Josiah the son of Amon king of Judah, in the thirteenth year of his reign.
3   It came also in the days of Jehoiakim the son of Josiah king of Judah, unto the end of the eleventh year of Zedekiah the son of Josiah king of Judah, unto the carrying away of Jerusalem captive in the fifth month.
4   Then the word of the LORD came unto me, saying,
5   Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee; and before thou camest forth out of the womb I sanctified thee, and I ordained thee a prophet unto the nations.
6   Then said I, Ah, Lord GOD! behold, I cannot speak: for I am a child.
7   But the LORD said unto me, Say not, I am a child: for thou shalt go to all that I shall send thee, and whatsoever I command thee thou shalt speak.
8   Be not afraid of their faces: for I am with thee to deliver thee, saith the LORD.
9   Then the LORD put forth his hand, and touched my mouth. And the LORD said unto me, Behold, I have put my words in thy mouth.
10   See, I have this day set thee over the nations and over the kingdoms, to root out, and to pull down, and to destroy, and to throw down, to build, and to plant.
This got to my heart because Jeremiah spent years in ministry, and he was very young when God called him.  I love verse 6 that says “I cannot speak for I am a child”.  I can relate to that in so many ways, yet I just want to desperately share what I have learned and devote my life to God.  To be a servant of His, to be a godly wife, mother, friend, hairstylist, or even writer.  God called Jeremiah, and from a young age I’ve felt Him calling me. I don’t have all the answers, and I don’t know exactly what God will want me to do, but I am ready to start.  Fear that I will make a mistake or of what others may think really is just a silly excuse I am making.  God said to Jeremiah not to say that he is a child, and God equipped him and gave Jeremiah what he needed to minister.
If you feel as though God is calling you, take heart in that.  It’s ok to be a little scared, but God wants to use you.  God will be with you just as He was with Jeremiah, and just as I know He is with me now.

I am totally amazed and excited to think about what God is going to be doing in my life and my families life, and I really look forward to what God can do in yours.

Today was my first ultrasound with Baby Gravener! I am SOOOOO incredibly excited I can’t even begin to explain it! When I first layed down on that table with Sean holding my hand I had this incredible sinking feeling and worry of something come over me. The nurse squirted that warm gel on my stomach and placed the probe and right away we saw this tiny little life actively moving all over the monitor! I filled up with tears almost instantly and my Man gave my hand a tight squeeze. We both had huge smiles on our faces right away as the nurse started pointing out what was what to Sean and I. The baby’s heartbeat was good and strong beating at 161 beats per minute! They gave me a due date of November 1, 2007, though I am still fairly certain of an October birth. They took a bunch of measurements and told me how strong and healthy not only the baby was, but how strong my body was handling things, was such a blessing beyond knowing! I was so overwhelmed with emotions I can’t even begin to put into words. My Mom was called into the room after about 15 minutes and she was able to see the baby doing backflips and twists quite literally all over the place - NO WONDER I FEEL this baby move so much! My Mom was sooo excited to see the baby and kept saying how beautiful the baby was already - I have to COMPLETELY Agree! The emotions from the day are just soooo overwhelmingly amazing!   Sean is very excited too - and I know it became so much more real to him to be able to see the baby moving around and that there really is a tiny precious life inside of me!  We are so happy and blessed to become a Daddy and Mommy to a little miracle given to us from God!  Just such a wonderful time for us!