This child totally cracks me up! He’s literally driving me crazy, but I love him!
He’s been getting into more and more trouble the older he gets lol, which I know goes with the territory. I was looking back over some of the old trouble he used to get into like taking off with my cell phone…throwing things in the bathroom to “go get them” because he knows he isn’t allowed in the bathroom. To getting diapers from the basket and throwing them all over the living room and decorating with diaper wipes. He was especially bad with this stuff when I first started with nursing Jenavieve. He’s been so much better at that, but now he’s really testing his will. He’s so cute and funny though. Today he actually took his diaper off right after I put it on him and was getting his clothes to get dressed and he peed on my floor. Couldn’t believe he did that, but yes he did. I feel like everything I’ve said to do or not do today he’s done or not done just to test me to see “what are You gonna do about it Mom?!”. He’s gotten a quick lesson of what I am going to do about it today. But it’s so hard to pick your battles and not loose it! Another reason that God’s love just amazes me! I read a little quote today that said
“The human heart is selfish, prefers its own way, fights being molded by God, and doesn’t want to give in when we don’t get what is “rightfully ours”. We’re stubborn, prideful, and strong-willed and these unbecoming characteristic are mostly starkly revealed in our relationships. Isn’t it a comfort to know that God’s love is never miserly, never punishing of our secret, doubt-plagued thoughts? He will never pelt us in anger. He will never leave us, even when we whine and throw our tantrums in our frustrations over what we don’t like or don’t understand. After all, He knows that we are just candy-tossing toddlers at heart.” (From the book Managing Your Moods)
All I could think when I was reading this during Bensen’s MUCH needed nap today how true of my own heart that is. And just simply how blessed I am by God’s love and grace! I need it so badly with my children! I pray that I can teach Ben and Jena that even though I “loose it” on them and mess up all the time…that simply I am just like them and that God is the perfect parent. He loves us so deeply I can’t even begin to comprehend it!
I wonder how God laughs at me and shakes his head when I throw my fits? I wonder if He finds it cute when I make my pooch lip faces like Bensen and thinks, you silly child Megan, i know what’s best. You’re fine, just keep going the way i want you to! I wonder if He ever laughs at the “new stunts” I learn to pull?
Anyway, I guess thats really all I have to say about it! I’m just a dirty rotten cute little sinner, just like my kids! It’s great how God gives us these different relationships ot understand Him better isnt it!?