We’ve been doing a semi-monthly Bible Study at my house on Managing Your Moods. This past weeks chapter was on Temper. When we first started talking about this, I thought this was the least of my “struggles” with moods and that I’m not out of control when it comes to temper. But after reading further and asking God to show me where how I can learn, I learned a lot! Too much. Let’s go back to my last two posts, (chuckling inside here) they were all about venting anger and frustrations. I seem to be doing that more and more. I get angry and think, I’m justified to be upset, “you” (whoever you are) aren’t doing it my way and you are just stupid because you aren’t doing it “right” or sensibly or BIBLICALLY for that matter! Oh yes, I go there in my head, and it’s really funny to me that I do because that’s something I strive so hard against and hate soooo badly is when people get all on their spiritual high horses about things and act like they got it all together and God is going to bless them beacuse they are doing “right in His eyes”. Ok, that was off topic, and YES God does bless us for practicing righteousness, but He gives us trials too. Anyway….this isn’t my point and I think I have a jumbled up mess in what I was trying to say….SO I’ll just say it.
I’m so guilty of a temper in my own selfish way! Truly and honestly, I do want to seek after God, and His ways and His blessings, but who do I think I am? We read Jonah 4:9 and God asked Jonah if it was right to be angry about the issue. And Jonah basically had a temper tantrum and said, YES it’s right to the point of death! Basically saying He God, back off, I can feel exactly how I want to feel, don’t tell me I shouldn’t be angry, I’m so angry I’ll just die! Pretty pathetic and pretty much me. I know i already shared Proverbs 29:11, but I also found Proverbs 18:2 that says, “A fool has no delight in understanding, but in expressing his own heart”. ouch for me! I always think for some reason I need to share what’s on my heart. I mean, it’s what is on my heart, so it’s real and should be shared with the world. Heck its why I even write on a blog or post facebook statuses LOL! Makes me wonder if I should even keep writing a blog, lol, not really, but in a way! So to those poor souls who actually read this, I am sorry. I would love to bless people and help them out with my writings, but that’s just not a gift God has given me thus far. SO, I write more for myself, as a journal and something to share with my kiddos later on in life. I’m really rambling off the point of my thoughts today. Well the point is, I really want to get into what Foolishness is. In God’s eyes. I don’t know that I take the word “fool” seriously enough. I’m not sure our culture takes that word seriously enough. No one wants to be called a fool, but sometimes I think that word carries deeper meaning than we give it. Like when Proverbs 29:11, or 18:2 or even 14:29 talks about it. Ok, more on that later. Baby crying and I must get going!